Just another day

Another day passed. Another dream shattered into pieces. Perhaps I'm wrong in standing up to my beliefs and I should just let me go with the sea of people that insist on taking me. In a world where our choices aren't worthy and we only have a fake sensation of free will there's no need to fight.

Sometimes I feel like the world is closing in and everything around me is surrounded by shadows. And I'm afraid of that shadows, people who I don't know but make it their routine to enter and exit small parts of my life. And then there are those who play a really important role on my existence, those who I can't live without them. It's like they're a part of me. However all the happiness they bring to me can't fullfil all my desires.Even though my friends are a really important part of my life there are some spaces that aren't meant for them, some spaces that are just meant to someone capable of love me with all his heart and soul. I'm not a person to give myself willingly at the beginning... i like to create bonds of trust and friendship, to know every little bit of information I can gather from that person. And only then I let myself fall in the deep depths of love. To feel loved, to be tenderdly held, isn't that everyone's dream?I believe it is, we just seek it by different means.

Ladybird